And then there’s Valentine’s Day

For some of us, the heavens have pissed on the very idea that we should find love and joy. We deserve so much love and joy, but for some of us there is only sadness. I think the horrible consequences of choosing the wrong mate, the wrong friends, the wrong path, and the wrong lovers …

It feels like death…

Death stays with you. #Mommyfab

Behavior

I'm death scrolling in the early morn because I am not having morning sex. I'm middle aged and alone after multiple failed relationships. Yet i'm at peace and not being mistreated, so I guess being alone without emotional or physical calamity is indeed a f'ing flex. I think we should prepare people (Black American women …

I struggle

The destination matters not so much because now I just want to experience love, triumph, adoration, satisfaction, and self -affirmation while I am on the way. #MommyFab #EfabulousHB

I’m not good at this…

Maybe amor fati is the only thing I have left. #MommyFab

Becoming undone…

I feel all the emotions at once. There is no emotional roadmap for navigating a pandemic. #MommyFab

The matter…

Then peak adulthood is learning to be happy with your lot in life and be well chuffed with who you actually are. #MommyFab

Talk to the paper

Things just spilled onto the paper and then I tucked the papers away. Sometimes it is hard to do these days because after a day of adulting and parenting, I'm tired. So I sit with the sadness. #MommyFab

The beginning of the holiday reflection…

We made it here. The 12th level of the 2020 version of Live Action Jumanji. #MommyFab

I’m depressed periodically during the pandemic, why wouldn’t I be…

I prefer to stay alive. Death is harsh and terribly final. I'm not done living yet.