It feels like death…

Death stays with you. #Mommyfab

The 10 year challenge.

I did a 10 year challenge in 2021 after I did my big chop. I struggle. So many beautiful parts of me are in my past. Yet, so many broken, sad, and hurt parts of me are in my past and linger in the present. I seem to languish with one leg in the NOW, …

Behavior

I'm death scrolling in the early morn because I am not having morning sex. I'm middle aged and alone after multiple failed relationships. Yet i'm at peace and not being mistreated, so I guess being alone without emotional or physical calamity is indeed a f'ing flex. I think we should prepare people (Black American women …

Let go or be dragged…

You deserve to be loved completely, with fervor and vigor. Pining for reciprocity is a fool's errand. You will be dragged everytime.

Good things….

Good things come to us and sometimes we aren't ready. That sucks arse. Being able to recognize a "good thing", a good work situation, a good person, and a good friend is a skill set that most adults don't have. They live in the world of "hindsight". Now there are other times when we know …

Fibroids hurt and often we as Black women don’t talk about it.

Fibroids hurt. They hurt physically, they hurt emotionally, they affect you mentally. Black American women are more likely to have fibroids. We are not talking about this enough. #MommyFab

Becoming undone…

I feel all the emotions at once. There is no emotional roadmap for navigating a pandemic. #MommyFab

Talk to the paper

Things just spilled onto the paper and then I tucked the papers away. Sometimes it is hard to do these days because after a day of adulting and parenting, I'm tired. So I sit with the sadness. #MommyFab

I’m depressed periodically during the pandemic, why wouldn’t I be…

I prefer to stay alive. Death is harsh and terribly final. I'm not done living yet.

Sadness on the 3rd of July

I've collapsed into myself today. And it feels safe here. #MommyFab